I’m not doing well, to be honest with you. I’m in a very dark place. I was on a jog today and I broke down crying right there in the street. I was thinking about Little G. In fact, as I write this, and Little G comes into my mind, I am crying again. On top of that, I took a look at myself in the mirror today without a shirt on and I was horrified at what I saw.

Anyway, Keith and Lori are out of town so I’m house sitting. I figured I could use this as a dry run for living alone. (your mom would be proud.) This is a huge house.. And it’s not even close to being as big as their last house. I’m looking forward to exercising in Mission Bay Park. But other than that, there’s absolutely nothing over here. I feel like I’m stranded in the middle of nowhere and I’m in the middle of the city.

Anyway, I’m going t o really try to work on myself for the next two weeks and see where I am at the end. Hopefully in a better place.