So, I think I wrote yesterday that, because I’d been packing in so much steak lately, I was going to make today fiber day (or something like that - I can’t be bothered to go look). Anyway, it turned out to be Carb Day. I went over Dan’s house to teach him to make my signature Mac & Cheese. (It really does make me laugh. It is like the national white trash meal.) He called me before I headed over to ask if I could bring my drill. Carina had gotten a couple of more shelves that she wanted to put up.

I thought about all the times over the years when I wished I had a drill. There have been more of those moments than you would expect. And all the times I drove up to my patent’s place to borrow a drill. Anyway, long story short, I drove over to Home Depot and bought him a drill. I have to say, it turned out to make my day to be able to give Daniel a drill (even though Carina probably hates that I’m filling their apartment with tools). It made me feel like a dad again. Totally made my night.

Anyway, we made the Mac&Cheese. it turned out to be fantastic. I wasn’t going to stay to eat it but Dan and I were having such a good conversation I did stay for dinner. It was nice. We watched a bit of the Padres game and talked about their upcoming trip with Miles and his wife. I’m so happy Dan has such a great friend network. He’s got a fantastic GF and a married couple to vacation with. I think about how Mary and I worried about him as a kid - he didn’t always fit in for some reason. But to see him now truly makes me happy.

Mary is going to see Riley tomorrow. I don’t feel great about it. Our lives are so separate now. It really does cause me vexation. But this is my time to grow. Like tonight, I asked her if she wanted me to come over after Dan’s. She said no. I’ll be honest, it’s tough for me not to take that personally. I can’t be like that anymore. I have to let Mary go. I need to focus on myself and let the chips fall where they may.